My daily life in my office aka Alcatraz

How can one go to work day in and day out and be so unhappy...not coz you really hate your job..only coz you work with people who are a bunch of two faced, Childish, control freaked, back stabbing, mother-f*ckers who think they own the company!!

I have tolerated this for nearly 2 years now and I've now come to my wits end!!! For the life of me i can not understand how people (who are suppose to be adults), can behave in such a manner. Spend the day breaking each other down behind the person they just called their "friend's" back. Soon as that person walks in the room they are all smiles and pretend... I sit back in my little corner and observe this, and i wonder how they can be this way.

I was brought up in a Afrikaans home, where if you don't have something good to say you rather keep quiet... Well i don't really wanna be a two-face myself, but i just cant handle this shit anymore.

Not to talk about the guys who go out into the messengers room and drink the beer they hide in the toilet. Last time i looked drinking during working hours @ the office was punishable with instant dismissal... I guess certain people can get away with murder in Alcatraz. I guess it helps being the bosses fave little worker!!!!

I'm so over this and I'm so over dealing with most of these two faced people. I'm so over feeling like shit every day i sit in this office. I'm so over waking up in a bad mood coz i know i have to waste another day of my life surrounded by assholes. I'm so over going home in a bad mood coz of all the negative, unhealthy vibes around me for 8 hours of my lousy day!!!!

I want this part of my life changed...i no longer want to be surrounded by such "types" of people.. You can have each other to break down and destroy... I'm applying for parole!!!!!!

LOVE....

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have..............

My Load shedding of the ass....

I'm on a freaking "adventure" to loose 5kg in less than 3 weeks... Bought a really expensive outfit for a friends formal wedding but the top part is to tight and they did not have a bigger size, so..... I came up with the very clever idea of buying the outfit and trying to loose a bit around the boobs..

Yesterday was the first day and to say the least i was starving, fell asleep with a growling tummy and a hell of a headache. Only thing I'm eating at this stage is 2 weetbix with water and no sugar, fresh fruit and veg as much as i want, and 4 provitas, water and greentea. NOTHING else. No sugar, no starch, no butter, no cooldrinks, no meat....NOTHING!!

I know i know crash diets don't work but i just need to fit into this outfit in time for the wedding...

I coped very well and the only thing bothering me last night was the fact that i could not indulge in a flipping beer!!! Now you must understand overall i eat very healthy but i enjoy chocolate and my beer / wine. So those two things are getting me down.

Today was day two and things went ok. Decided to eat a couple of extra carrot sticks and have a huge green salad for lunch. Not feeling hungry at all but the craving for meat is coming... Skipping supper is a brilliant thing with my body, descent breakfast, good lunch, two in between snax and no supper!!

The dreadful headache of yesterday has left most of my brain... however my eyes are killing me this afternoon. (Is this gay man I'm working with hitting on our new staff member? WTF?)

Holy shit its late i have to run....chat soon...

Inner struggles

I stole this off some old man named John's blog:

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.

Answered alot of my questions.....

Maturity...

So I'm having this discussion on maturity with a friend...was actually thinking about it on my way to work this morning... What the fuck is maturity anyway? There is a very fine line between mature, funny, irresponsible and just being a freak.

At 33 (2months away from 34) I still find myself doing shit like riding bicycles with my kids, going skinny dipping in the ocean...naked....at night.... Listening to music really loud in my car. Pulling random dance moves at work, challenging my son to see who does the moonwalk the best, tap dancing on my "stoep", getting drunk - sitting on the pavement eating dry bread and chicken (bring back memories Neilie? ha ha). Laughing my ass off at random shit....blah blah blah..

So living life to its fullest....does that make me immature or just fun?

My trail of thoughts at this present moment...

So this is my first post and here i sit arguing with myself about what the first post should be about... Love, Life, Satan, friends, my kids.... So I've decided to write about my trail of thoughts.. Who in their right mind spends the day talking to themselves in their mind.. (Can someone answer that fucking phone!!!!).. I'm so sick of this fucking office and the fact that people blatantly ignore their phones ringing even though they are sitting at their desks staring into oblivion, probably hoping the phone fairy is gonna miraculously appear and take the call... Fuck now I've lost my trail of thought... (ANSWER THAT FUCKING PHONE!!!)

Anyway... the phone fairy has let me down and I'm a little irritated at the moment, but besides that i think i will survive this day..Why did i put peanut butter on my bread today when i feel like eating bovril?

I keep finding my mind wondering out the door, down the street, straight to a certain man i think i have the hots for... Wow i just cant help but smile when i think of the way his eyes light up when he looks at me and smiles... (continue my thoughts with precaution now!!! slow down Doret). Wish i was sitting on the beach with him, just talking... O shit look at the wind.. Beach is maybe not such a good idea. And besides reality is I'm stuck in the office..whats for supper tonight.. I hope Jaun washes the dishes. Little bastard wants to get paid for working in the house but i end up doing everything, nice surprise of Rand Zero for him at the end of the month.. Hope Usher is not making plans to rob my house now that i fired her ass... Why was she in the area? (that mother F*cking phone again!!!)

Nice guy i met from India on facebook. Seems to good to be true..but he's Scorpio like me so its understandable.. he he

I'm bored.......